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To Those Who Brought Me Down

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To Those Who Brought Me Down

Dear you,

Yes, you. You men and you women, three in total, who decided
that it was okay to make my life a living hell.
I'm not gonna lie,
the pain that you caused still hurts.
There's still a hole that you left in my heart
when you turned your back on me.
But it's time for me to confront my pain
and to confront you.

Let's start with the first. Ah, my first love,
the first guy I really cared for.
The first one who I thought cared for me.
Ah, you...you were a wolf in sheep's clothing.
You made me feel like a gem.
You made me think you cared.
But then turned your back and left me.
A while later, I let you back in,
and we started dating again.
That was my first mistake.
The second was letting you play me
for six long weeks.
The third was not leaving you
with all your bull crap.
And the fourth was bothering to care
what you thought of me after that.
The fifth was trying to be your friend
when all you did was give me hate.
Slipping me the finger
and cursing me when I was away.
But you taught me a valuable lesson
and that was that people like you
can never be happy.

The second...oh...you had once seemed like a dear friend.
But the entirety of two years
you always put me down.
You got on me about my personality
when all I tried to be was good enough.
Nothing ever pleased your eye
and I never measured up.
You called yourself a favorite,
the smartest in the class,
but not many cared to be around you
for all you did was curse and laugh.
You broke my spirit
and the spirit of others.
Heh, the worse was when you joined 'church' people
and bullied me when I was alone.
But just as the first,
you taught me a lesson.
Manipulative people aren't the ones for me.
I refuse to ever again
grovel at your feet.

Then there is the third.
You...you I truly loved.
You I wanted to marry.
You I thought was a gift from God.
And in his own way you were,
but not the kind I wanted.
You showed me how to live on through depression.
You made me feel a new kind of hope.
You stood at my side for seven months exact.
We were together through what seemed
like hell and back.
I was faithful always to you,
even when your parents hated me.
I could've left your side at any time
but I chose to stay.
I waited for you.
I worked hard for you.
I gave you the cracked heart of mine.
What a foolish, foolish thing to do.
You turned on me out of no where
and then tried to be my friend.
But when leaving me wasn't enough
you stomped down on my head.
You accused me of such nasty things
that I had never done.
And now, stranger, the battle I have won.
I learned from you the true pain of betrayal
and just how much it hurts.
Because I trusted when you said
you'd keep me safe and sound.
You lied for seven months,
no I don't think you ever cared.
But that's all fine and dandy,
cause nothing would ever make me take you back.
I'll say I miss the friendship we once had
but absolutely nothing more
because true friends
don't leave others bleeding on the floor.

Oh you strangers,
I bet you've forgotten my name.
Which shows me that I was never important to you.
But the loss of you is my gain.
See...not only did I learn what I don't want in life.
I moved on to find a love and other friends who care for me.
I hope you understand, this is not me hating you.
But it's simply me saying
just what you've all put me through.
That little girl in ninth grade, one so innocent and sweet,
well she no longer exists.
Why? Because you torn, beat, and killed her.
Left her when she needed you.
Now she's better and stronger.
Her heart still not in tact,
but she's not so weak now.
She doesn't grovel or plead
to make people like her.
She doesn't let others walk over her.
She doesn't need help from people like you.
She's happier now that you're done and gone.
But, I won't lie...I look forward to seeing you all again
just so I can stand and say.
That little girl you knew before
is no longer me.
I want to stand before you soon
and show you what you helped make
and just how much you're missing
because of your stupid mistakes.

Now I wish you all the best of luck
and hope that you can change
because everyone deserves to be happy
in their own little way.
My first, I hope you can change your arrogant ways.
It was always all about you.
It was never about anyone else.
Maybe some day you'll be able to get a grip
and stop fooling yourself.
Oh the second, I hope you can treat people right
otherwise you may be left friendless
and out of sight.
See people don't like, pardon me, bitches.
So don't act so much like one, that is my wish.
And dear third, thank you for the seven month journey,
it was fun while it lasted.
But I'm much happier now that you're gone.
I hope you can turn out nicer
and learn to listen to your friends' cries
otherwise you'll be the one
to just let them die.
I needed you all at one point in life
and I thought you were there, but it was all a lie.
But again, I wish you all the best of luck
on this journey that is life.
Please change your bad habits
and become better.
Just one little thing.
I should say though pain is still there,
I forgive you all.
And God bless you with long life
and strength through it all.

Sincerely,
 
The not-so-innocent, little girl you knew.


Just a little something to get things out of my system. Please excuse my brief language and know that this is not a form of revenge or anything. As you all know, I write to be real. And this is the story of the last two years and betrayals that I've felt.

If those spoken about in this piece read this, well...oh well. I forgive them all and wish them the best of luck. I've come so far from that little girl who was so innocent two years ago. My life is much different now thanks to these three people, and although they hurt me, i really do thank them for teaching me some valuable lessons and for forcing me into where I am now because I have great things going for me now. ^_^
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TheMassiveQuasar's avatar
i've just read some & haven't complete yet but its very well written. 
why didnt you make it 3 parts?