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Living in DarknessLiving in Darkness
Blindfolded by my own misery,
there is no light for me to see.
My depression has become my friend
because it’s persistence never ends.
Never once has it failed to thrive
and I won’t deny that it makes me feel alive.
I’ve been drowning for far too long.
Is there a point in being strong?
Pain has become my blanket at night.
It’s the place I crawl to when I lose the fight
against the insanity that creeps at my mind.
One day, maybe peace I will find
and maybe I can return to the light.
But for now, the end is not in sight
so I will live in the darkness that binds me,
praying on day, joy I will see.
Watching over me and standing up
to put all the bullies in their place,
my protector always does what he can
to make me feel like I'm safe.
Caring and loving all the time
just to make sure that I'm okay.
This amazing man do I love
and I trust him all the same.
He's like an older brother to me
and I wouldn't trade him for the world.
He shows me that I belong
and he means so much to me.
Relationships are held together with trust,
whether it be romantic or platonic,
we all need to be able to trust.
So then, how does one respond when
they have been hurt over and over again
to the point where they can no longer trust.
I feel like a failure,
fighting to stay alive.
All I do is upset and hurt people
when I'm just tying to be good.
Maybe it would be better
if i just stopped
Beautiful NightmareBeautiful Nightmare
Hair of raven black and eyes of ocean blue;
she’s the only one who’s heart is true.
Day in and day out she loves and so
my love for her will surely grow.
By my side is she each and every day,
and when the night hits she runs away
to meet me in my dreams.
She’s watching over me, so it seems.
I never want her to flee
because without her, sanity I cannot see.
When she is by my side
I feel like I never need to hide.
She makes me feel emotions
that I never knew and they roar like the oceans.
I feel a longing I cannot name
and a lust I cannot tame.
There is sorrow that fills me up to the brim
and every now and then I feel grim.
Whenever I sleep I’m surrounded by fears
that run down my face as tears
until she comes to me in my sleep.
My heart she will keep.
Life no longer seems fair
because she is my beautiful nightmare.
Past LifePast Life
Memories of the past
come rushing into my mind
like violent waters
overtaking the land.
I'm submerged in the images
of the girl I used to be
playing on repeat
in my mind.
Once upon a time,
I was pure and innocent.
I had a heart without a crack
and a body without scars.
And now look where I am.
With heart shattered
in my hands
and my arms marked,
I stand and remember
the person I once was.
All because of a picture
of an all too familiar face
of the one that I first
gave my heart to;
the one who broke it
in a past life.
Broken Mind, Broken Body, Broken HeartBroken Mind, Broken Body, Broken Heart
On and on it goes,
the pain that is.
It's a never ending stair case
only spiraling downwards.
There's no light,
there is only darkness.
First I lost my mind,
giving my heart away
to those whom I thought
would take care of it.
I gave it away
to those I trusted.
Slowly, my mind cracked
from keeping me awake
night after night
with fear and doubt.
Eventually, my sanity
began to disappear.
Then my body
began to follow
as it turned on itself
and I used my nails
to mark up my arms
with bloody cuts.
Time catches up with me
and my heart
has begun to break.
Torn and tattered
from being stitched
one too many times.
My heart is now mine
and I doubt I'll trust again
because I can't repeat the past
and have to stitch it uo
one more time.
Dear HeartDear Heart
I'm sorry for putting you through so much pain.
My childish desires tore you apart
and in the end there was nothing to gain.
I gave you away one to many times
and didn't stop to think that you're be broken
because other people don't acknowledge you and mine
and think that you're not worth a token.
Oh heart, you're worth more than those lies
I promise I'll take better care of you
so one day there will be no goodbyes.
Yes, I will see that this is true.
I won't give you away anymore.
I've stitched you together a time too many,
but you deserve so much more.
I won't give you away to any.
Tiny pieces of shattered glass sprinkle the ground;
sharp shards tear the flower petals and the leaves.
Blood splatters the ground as feet trample the floor.
The glass orb of life has cracked and broken;
life is over and done.
Dreams have been crushed and hopes smashed.
Life seems pointless and unnecessary.
Shall one just throw in the towel and die?
Is there any reason to continue on?
Shard of shattered hope and dreams
cover the ground.
Best Friend (the Laws of Physics)Holding hands pulled us out of the pit both
The laws of physics did not apply
We would revel in rain, you and I
My fuse was lit, you'd spew fire
Hell hath no burden you can't share with me
Twins from separate mothers are we.
ReflexionaEstas cansada de llorar, de sufrir, de ser lo que eres…. ¿llegó la hora de partir?. Terminas de cenar, comiste muy bien, reíste con tu familia, todos se extrañaron, hace un par de meses no comes bien y siempre estas tan callada, pero seguro es solo una etapa, eso es lo que ellos piensan, pero hoy todo cambió, tu mamá piensa que ya has superado todas esas estupideces de niña pequeña y sonría, les das las buenas noches a ambos, los abrasas y subes corriendo a tu cuarto, corres, corres para que no te vean llorar. Cierras la puerta y te sientas en la cama, piensas en una carta, dejarles una carta sería lo mejor… “Queridos mamá y papá…" ¿pero que les dices? no sabes cómo decir que te odiabas, que te lastimabas casi a diario, que pedías un poco de ayuda, que ya no podías más. “Los amo, lo siento" es lo único que pones en la carta, solo eso. Tus lágrimas salen, estas de
Bestest Friend ContestBestest Friend Contest
''When our souls feel really''
I don't think there is love greater than the love between brothers, a lot more if they are twins.
My poem is dedicated to my dear sister and starts on a sunday, five years ago.
I had to travel with my mother for a period of 1 month , It was the first trip I did it without them, so far we have never separated from each other.
It came the day of the trip and she stayed at home with my father, I want to say that during the bus trip my head and my heart failed to calm down... thousand feelings shot me at the time,could not stop thinking about it and worrying of as is it in all this time.
After 4 hours traveling my head and heart wanted back with her, but this was impossible.
I spent those 27 days really badly, spoke with her by phone every 2 hours and she told me that she told me that couldn't eat or sleep...She also pass those days very bad... losing more than 5 kg.
I believe that the true friendship you can find it only in your
PugglesPuggles, Puggles, Puggles! We love puggles, and who makes them then miss callykarishokka.
Her creativity of this puggles makes fan go crazy over these cuties
She even sells her babies to those who want one, and creates more
But she makes the best Transformers Puggles for TFF (Transformer fans) that anyone ever seen
We really love your puggles and want to see more of it.
A beautiful woman in an ugly worldA Beautiful woman...
When I think of the word beautiful, your name always is the first thought to cross my mind. Images of your face flood through my brain putting a smile on my face. The outer beauty will fade so that is not what truly captivates my attention, the true beauty is the heart you hold close like a jade. You protect it's energy and beauty for the times when you need to bring joy and happiness to those you care about the most, and those care about you the most. The truth is my intentions were not to fall for you but I simply could not help but want all of you. I wanted more and began to crave your care, lust for your love, howl for your hugs which were the side effects from being addicted to a drug. Dreams of the future where I would wake up to your smile, to hold you close along with our child, the happy life and having you as my wife. Reading story books while you cook and goodnight kisses after washing the dishes. Sitting and drinking tea while you lay against me, sighin
Hoping for winter.Hello to the cold season.
I welcome you with open arms.
Everyday draws closer to the
Everyday I hope for the cold.
May winter last forever. May
it bring the next ice age.
Always a thrill when winter
A time for snow, a time for
joy, A time for everyone to
get along. Merriment brings
us closer to the snow.
For after all,
be a time of joy
and not a time for
BY MY RIGHTFUL PLACE IN THIS WASTELAND OF FILTH,
I WILL MARGINALIZE ALL OF THE FILTH AND DISPOSE THE DISSENTERS,
YOU WILL LISTEN TO WHAT I HAVE TO SAY,
BECAUSE HOW DARE YOU QUESTION THE GODDESS IN HER GLORY?!
(can you keep it down, I think they can hear you-)
SILENCE, CHILD! YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO SPEAK TO ME!
YOU ARE A REMINDER OF ALL OF THAT CARE AND COMPASSION THAT
IS SO FUCKING POINTLESS! ALL SHALL DEFECATE
AT THE SOUND OF MY BOOMING VOICE!!!
(I thought we would try to be better than-)
WITH YOUR OBFUSCATED FEELINGS?!
(where is the forgiveness....)
WITH YOUR PLEAS AND THE BEGGING?!
(nothing but logic and determination...)
ALWAYS ACTING OUT ON EMOTION?!
(you are no goddess to me...)
HOW DARE YOU, FOALISH SOUL! YOU ARE NOTHING TO ME!
WHY SHOULD I GIVE A SHIT ABOUT YOUR OPINION OF ME!
I COULD HAVE YOU WIPED OFF THE FACE OF THIS EARTH
IN A SINGLE HEARTBEAT!
(but you wont, you need me-)
angel-of-milkywayMiss Angel-of-Milkyway's a fan of transformers.
Her drawings of TFP makes fans of Tf go underly crazy, and ask her for more
One of the best tfp art she drew is Happy Transformer Family, one of the best drawing that turned into a magazine cover for people who want to make Tf magazine.
Angel also makes cute TF babies that makes the fan go crazy over their cute bunny ears, and their smaller version.
We all love your TF art and hope to see some more in the future.
B.U.R.N.I.N.G O.N T.H.E I.N.S.I.D.EBlazed hearts
Unconscious for eternity
Rescuing in need
Never to be awaken
Night-shaded even in the shadows
On-going destructive misery
Numb on the inside
Tomorrow is bleak
Hollow and consumed
Insignificant compared to the world
Shadows injected, poisoning the victim
Death wishes granted
Even in death, we suffer
Goodbye to Your LiesI waited up
night and day.
that you'd walk away.
I believed every
word you said.
I thought you loved me
but it was all in my head.
I waited through
'six weeks of hell'
and was heart broken
when you said farewell.
I cried for days
because of you.
And guess what,
now I'm through.
I'm long gone now.
I wouldn't come back
to you even if
you were to ask.
I've moved on
and I'm happy again.
I've found someone who's
more of a gentleman.
This isn't revenge,
but I managed to find hope.
And now through all the pain
I have a way to cope.
And you're no longer
I refuse to be
You can't hold me
After the pain you gave me
I've come out ten times stronger.
So you can hate me
all you want.
But beat me...
I have won against you.
No longer can you succeed.
Because now I'm taking control
and I have been freed
Of the chains
you used to hold me down.
I'm not staying
So I guess this
is my goodbye
to all your
silly, silly lies.
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